The title of this blog may be confusing. I am not referring to my life in general, but how cluttered my office and other areas that I frequent are. Clutter can be overwhelming and can cause stress and anxiety. It can be difficult to focus and be productive when surrounded by clutter.

I often feel stressed out and when there is too much clutter, I don’t know how to begin. I will delay and ignore cleaning as much as possible. I don’t know how to start. I will make plans and try to decide where to put things. I will then rethink my decisions, over and over. I have so many ideas in my mind that I can’t organize them. It just results in me not accomplishing anything. This can be frustrating and can lead to feelings of helplessness and being overwhelmed.

However, there are occasions when I will be productive for hours. I am completely absorbed. Somehow, I can concentrate on the task and finish it. This does not happen often. These moments of productivity can be a welcome relief from the chaos of clutter. It can be satisfying to see progress and to feel a sense of accomplishment.

I felt productive today, but I ended up making a mess in my office. I wanted to give my office a more comic nerd vibe, and I achieved that partially. But in the process, I cluttered everything. I think I did more harm than good. Maybe tomorrow I will organize things better. It can be difficult to balance the desire for personal expression with the need for organization and order.

I understand that my ADHD is a big factor in this. It’s not a justification, it is the issue. The difficulty focusing. Getting sidetracked. Feeling overloaded. All things that I relate to ADHD. ADHD can make it difficult to stay on task and to follow through on plans. It can also make it challenging to prioritize and to make decisions. It is important to recognize the impact of ADHD and to develop strategies to manage it.

Right now, my office is kind of a mess with some organised areas.  I really need to figure it all out. Whether that happens, I am not sure.  Tomorrow is another day. Till then, I leave these famous last words; “Well shit. THAT didn’t work out like I thought it would.”

P.S. Should I be putting pictures of stuff in my blogs. Leave a comment.