My mind is still active late at night. So, I try to deal with it. I have been working on some personal projects. One of them is this website. Another is learning how to use Microsoft Excel. I know the basics, but I want to learn more advanced features of the software. I also want to learn Video Editing. I am using Davinci Resolve which has a free version. I considered Adobe Premiere, but I don’t have the money for the monthly fee. Keeping my mind busy is something I think is good for my mental health. The last thing but not the least is doing art. I need to come up with a new art project. The one thing I haven’t been doing is playing video games.

I don’t have much time, as it always flies by too fast. I often lose track of time when I am absorbed in whatever I am doing. Even tonight, working on a spreadsheet to track comics. When I glanced at the clock, it was 3 am. I am sleepy, but I really wanted to write a blog post.

These activities make me feel like I am doing something productive. I have been out of work for a long time, and I feel very worthless. Having stage 4 cancer prevents me from working. The main reason I have been off for so long is due to mental health problems. To be honest, I still don’t think I am mentally well. I take many pills for mental health and see a psychologist and a psychiatrist. They have been helpful, but I still go through highs and lows. Every time I think I am improving I have a relapse.

I do these activities to cope. They distract me from my worries and sadness, even if I still feel the same. The projects show me that I can find some satisfaction in doing things.

I think that it is time for me to hit the sack. Remember this; “Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive.” – Elbert Hubbard. Have great day everyone.